I don't know what to do personally. Once more, i've received a low mark on a project in art, and once more i have become completely discouraged. Its not even that i'm not trying, i just don't understand what she wants. I feel like she's treating everything i give her like i could do potentially better, but the matter of the fact is i can't because i can't think of anything better. Things are so stressful right now. Midterms are coming up and i feel like every teacher just dropped a bomb on me. I'm so unhappy with myself because i'm so unhappy. Really, i'm so sick and tired of being sick and tired (who ever can guess where thats from, they get a cookie). I have no outlet for my frustration and stress which is causing it to slowly consume me from the inside out. I want to draw, but i either have lost the motivation to do so, or just don't have the time. I find that anytime when I do have time, i'm either catching up on sleep, trying to maintain a crumbling relationship, or doing over bearing assignments. I have honestly have lost all motivation to do anything because i feel like no matter how hard i try, no matter the hours i stay up trying, nothing at all, not even just school, my life too, just seems to not be working. Not to mention, i feel like everyone around me are also feeling the same, which reflects amongst everyone else. Happiness is not lingering, in fact it has become a minor emotion in our everyday lives. Maybe it is time for an intervention, a revolution of sorts in our lives. Instead of making slow and neutral efforts, its time to be radical and spontaneous. We have become so lazy to the point where we don't want to do anything anymore, or we're just so caught up in our work that the time to even consider doing anything fun and exciting. I think the world needs to find an outlet, and i think that we all need to just take a break from life and go crazy.

But we all know this won't happen. People have become too lazy for it to happen. We are all so comfortable with this lazy, stressful, boring life that we have no need for fun anymore. And no one wants to act alone and look like a fool now do they?

Best. Movie. Of. Life.

Okay so here I haven't written a journal for ages and now I'm writing two in a row. But I just wanted to share the fascination with those who have seen the movie or those who haven't. And if you haven't, you must watch it.
We are watching it in Philosophy, and its just the most interesting riveting movie I have ever seen. It is definitely going on my favourites list. To me I find it so simple to understand, while a lot of the class is sort of lost in translation. They can't really understand the concept of where the movie is coming from. One of my classmates actually came to me explaining how stupid he thought the movie was because it was far too abstract for him to follow and that nothing like that would ever happen. But why do we need to make movies based on what could happen in reality when you could go out in everyday life and experience that? Isn't it far more interesting to view the dreams, opinions, and thoughts of a creator who so perfectly designed a masterpiece? I suppose I'm a tad of a hypocrite being a realistic artist because you could simply look at a photograph. I still find great appreciation to those who come up with such interesting and original ideas. This movie has been an inspiration to me to exercise my mind in an abstract way that i never have done before. Maybe the outcomes will be posted here on DA.

Tell me what you think if you've seen the movie.

So life seems to have moved on to a place where I find myself to be quite content with. this doesn't mean that all my problems have been solved but I've stopped panicking and calmed down a little.

Anyways, I was quite pleased when I logged onto my deviantart last night to see a note from :marzguy: asking permission to use My Paper Heart in a poem that he wrote which is actually quite beautiful and I was very honoured.

Their poem can be found here: [link]

So that really made my day

Other then that, I have come to the conclusion that i have created a vendetta for my art class. Its not the people in it but the class itself. We're doing printmaking right now, which has no creativity at all. We had to choose a culture and then make a print of it. I chose Egypt. I became brain dead I swear. I cannot think of anything.

Here's to the hope of inspiration hitting me in the face.

With the start of school and life in general, i have no had a whole lot of time to get things updated. Or at least that's my excuse. But today I got most of my new drawings up, not to mention i'm working on a new one right now.

Updates with my art:
I got accepted to teach again in Mississauga in April. Only 2/3 of my classes got chosen but that's okay. I'm going to submit for Montreal next year and some American shows if I can. Right now we're having issues with the crossing of the boarder and its just a huge mess, as is everything else right now. I have art this semester which means I'll have a good chunk of things to upload. I also bought a nice big box of plaster which means new projects for me. Yaayy. Other then that, commissions are really slow right now but I'm going to post some flyers up places, maybe today.

Other then that..... i dunno. I'll try to keep more updated, get some new inspiration in me and see where that goes. Yay life.

EDIT

Oh yea almost forgot. Thank you everyone for the support. It really makes me want to do more not to mention i now have 6,006 page views! That makes me happy. Again thanks everyone!

I did it. I finished my ISU for art this year a week and a half early!!!! Better then last year

So yea, its that time of year again, projects due, essays to write, exams to stress over. Who doesn't love it? Me. I don't love it. But I do love the fact that there are 15 days of school left. Then its summer and I have a feeling that this summer is going to be awesome.

In other news... I will be posting a lot of stuff in the next month or so. I need to get all my art stuff home so I can take pictures and scan images and post them not to mention get pictures of my sculptures. Sooo.. Keep checking back and thanks for the support!!

~Mouffie